It is not unusual for persons to have a “realisation”[ as opposed to Realization] that they " are " Jesus Christ*. It is also not terribly unusual for a person to experience an epiphany.
These are both states of Gnosis, or, literally, Knowing.[ this is distinct and different from gnostic plans to rule the world by for example subverting language and other evil plots]. How they translate, or rather, transliterate, these sublime and direct communions is another story. This does NOT make of them “disgusting”, though certainly ignorant in some ways, not to be able to understand or keep the blessing to ones self. This is difficult to sufficiently explain, unless and until one undergoes the experience/transformation oneself, and that may take many moons.
And thus, the caveat here, is that “knowing” that a thing is True is NOT in any way the same as Understanding It, most especially not as understanding It in Itself.
*: note, if you will, for example the( perhaps unfortunate) utterance of Mr. J. Lennon being interviewed on-the-run in an airport where he replies “We’re bigger than Jesus”… He had also around the same time told some friends that he had realised that he was Jesus.
Other opinings or discussive replies from Gizars are very welcome…