Morrisville, I get the sense that your religious upbringing affected you in a bad way, and that you’re carrying deep trauma over your experience. I feel for what you’ve been through.
A friend recently mused: Life is Full of Options, Options, Options. One chooses one Option, and if that produces consequences that don’t serve well, one then simply chooses another Option to try – and there is one’s Life Path – bound together by a string of chosen Options, each yielding different consequences! And that got me to think about how Options are but Teachers in our Life’s Path, that ultimately lead us to Wisdom.
I’m thinking that you chose an Option to remove yourself from a religion that was not working for you (and harming you), and you must have derived some wisdom through that process. I hope that you have been healing as well, from that traumatic life experience, and finding ways of applying TLC to this long internal wound. Hopefully, as a start, to avoid any kind of community that tries to force a belief onto you.
We have friends who belong to various religions, Christian and non-Christian, and they seem to be very grounded by their experiences. And it gives me to wonder, as well, to what extent a person’s experience has to do more with how a person’s local community interprets a text that they use as the foundation of their religion, than the book itself? I’m not, myself, sure about any of this, as I was never forced by my Parents to belong to any religion (and they didn’t force any kind of belief system on me at all). You have a deeper experience of this, and I want to thank you for sharing about this.
When I saw your post, it made me wonder if you have been perceiving some commonalities between the Wokeism Project and your personal experiences from your former religion (the forcing of belief comes to my mind)?